I Took A Bold Step
In the Month of November, I did some things I have never attempted to do before and I didn't die from doing it, I feel more powered to do it again and again and again and again….
So, for the first time in my life, I shared my work openly to a group of women (small mighty fearless group of women btw). I have never ever associated openly with what I write, I haven't ever read it out to another person but I did this time, and I am super glad I did. Oh, I felt the blueessss, I almost bailed cause it was an open mic session in an event, nothing necessarily big big big but it was my first time ever putting my face to what I write. I actually shared a very personal piece of my life and experiences and these are the things that I usually don't want to share because it's like a mirror into my heart and my soul 🥺. Also because hmm, I haven't gotten to the very end of that piece, i’m still somewhere in between. But I did anyway and again I didn't die😂. Instead, I got for myself a lot of love notes at the end of the program.
But was this the only bold thing I did? Nah, just one of first!
Second Bold thing I did was to plan a surprise video and birthday celebration moment for my dad and my uncle. I think my pocket took the hit of that planning but it's so okay 😊 because I would never have the moment of seeing my daddy's face lit up like it did. I took a photo graph but I think it's better in my head. It's engraved in a way, that I hope when I finally clock in on that photography class, I would finally get the world to see how I see things. But I did plan, co-planned and excited a surprise for my Dad, and Uncle cause they are born the same day. I got to say how much I love him, even if it wasn't very grand.
And last week Friday, I crossed the newly constructed pedestrian bridge at Iwo road. Right from when I was little, I always had an intense fear of heights. I never crossed more than a flight of stairs and definitely not the stairs with naked or visible barricades. I could go up to a million flights of stairs as long as I can't see how high I went. I remember my service year, when I got to go cover and event at Bower's Tower. It was my first time and not the most memorable one because I embarrassed myself. You see, it was Tourism Day being celebrated and we got to climb in the tower. But I couldn't enjoy the view because I had a panic attack the moment I got out to the top. A kind young man led me to the exit but I don't even recall his face nor his name nor how he looks like. Because that's how blurry it was for me. But I have moved on either ways but I was really embarrassed when I got to the down floor. But standing at the Top of Bower towers, with whoever will be my loved one, for a photoshoot has recently been my vision and dream moments for when that time comes… The only obstruction was me, cause if I can't handle 2-3-4 story buildings, how was I to cope with the experience of Bower's Tower? So I slowly, gradually, started pushing my limits. And on Friday I did it. I must have looked calm or regular user but I was going through a turmoil in the inside. But I told myself that I was going to do it, and I did it, through a hundred self given owo talk, I climbed a pedestrian bridge.
They might not look pretty audacious to you, if anything, they might be things you find as regular or for the sake of being GenZ, “mid”. But this things are little milestones that I have been covering and giving myself a hug for. Sometimes, maybe I even cry about it but hey👋, it's just me, being me♥️
